A short list of things I have learned about myself this week:

• I make amazing food, with no recipes, and from whatever I have in my kitchen. It’s one of my #superpowers.
• My breath slows down immensely when I am at home. This is new, this calm.
• My students make me feel good just by being themselves. I love them.
• I’m gloriously happy with a cup of herbal tea, my books, journal, pets, music/movie and my warm heater.
• I don’t need to be in a love relationship.
• The realization that someone has been lying to me sends shockwaves through my body starting in my gut, and flares out through my skin. It feels like I’m shedding a layer from the inside. It’s a massive betrayal, and inexcusable.
• Being around people that have a similar worldview to me is a massive de-stresser and WHO MY TRIBE IS. I love all humans, truly. However, I feel most at home with the gypsy artist environmentalist progressive bohemians. I went to a new restaurant (5 on Black) this weekend and they had a recycle station and a compost station. That is exceptionally rare in Montana. I almost started crying.

A short list of things I will take into 2020:

• My faith
• Loyalty
• JOY
• My ability to ALWAYS find a solution to a problem, like a scientist.
• Family and Friends
• Creativity
• Enthusiasm
• Adventure
• Alchemy
• Love
• My amazing dog, Korra. Ok, the cats can come, too.
• And a few pairs of boots

A short list of things I will leave in 2019

• Online dating
• Changing anything about myself for someone else
• Apologizing for myself
• Building up stories about other people in my head
• Grudges, anger, frustrations about past relationships
• Self-destructive choices