I don’t honestly know how I got here, but the day to day memory serves well. The amount I have learned about being alive and myself without alcohol has fully shocked me. I thought I knew who I was before ending booze. Two years sober has taught me that healing is not linear. Living with all of my emotions and accepting them in real time has been such a privilege and wild ride. Year two was way way harder than year one. I have had a lot of nightmares where I use alcohol and lose all the work I’ve put in. Now I can say-I don’t lose that work. I won’t drink. And everything I have learned is inside me, forever.